Sunday, May 30, 2010

New Beginnings; Good or Bad??

Let's see;

* I've finished reading The Diary of Anne Frank

It's a really great book (or diary, to be exact). I like how mature she is. To think that she's only 13 or 14 years old but with the maturity of adults. She comtemplates issues that most children don't and only half of adults dare to. She's got wisdom beyond her years and she's able to understand things at such an early age, things that most people spend half their life trying to figure out. I admire her. I don't mean to seem conceited but she reminds me a little of myself. I think we all see a part of ourselves in Anne. She makes so much sense when she's pouring her heart out on those pages. She's taught me alot about myself too. I owe her alot. I think a woman like her, if she had the chance to grow up, would have been someone who changed the world, a woman of powerful words. She is now too, but due to her unfortunate and terribly short life, she didn't get as far as she could have. Anne made such and impact at the age of 15, imagine the impact she would have made if she had lived to be 60.


* I'm starting in the Accounts class tomorrow

I hope I do better there than I did in History. I know for sure that History isn't my subject but I'm not sure about Accounts. I have a good feeling but still, I can't help but wonder. Accounts seems like a better option. It's more straight forward. There's a right and a wrong and there's always only one or two ways to get the answer your looking for. I prefer that to the abbysmally subjective ways of History. I know it sounds insane, since I love Literature which is the most subjective subject there is, but I just don't get History. I can't seem to wrap my head around it.

Anyway, I don't really know anyone form the Accounts class and I don't think they know I'm coming. I'm expecting a bunch of shocked faces staring at me once I enter class tomorrow. That, followed closely by an unending cycle of questions, makes tomorrow a day I'm really dreading. But then again, it'll be one of those times when I wonder what I was afraid of in the first place (I've had far too many of those times for it to be random or abnormal).


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I've dyed my red hair black again

A teacher from school warned me that if I didn't return my hair to it's natural and God-given colour, she would chop it off. I really hated to see the red hair go, but I love my locks too much to risk it being unprofesionally cut. It was heart ache to see my red streak disappear. I would have loved to keep it the way it was, to be the rebellious little smart-alec I was planning to be. However, the 'Miss Goody-Two Shoes' label seemed to have made an impact on my conscience. It's become more powerful and I just can't seem to shut it up (which is a good thing, regardless of how evil I sound now). On that note, my hair is back to black. It's feel kind of weird because I was so used to it having a red streak that now I feel like such a boring person without it. My flag of freedom and my symbol of adulthood has been forcibly taken away from me!! (Okay, stop being such a drama-queen!)


* School holidays starts in a week

YAY!!! I know I've barely started school, but I've been away from that kind of environment for so long that I actually don't miss it anymore. In fact, I can't wait to get away. Now that I'm in a different class, school has become even more boring (didn't think that was possible). I don't really mesh with anyone in that class. The only one I'm friendly with, a girl named Izumi, has been absent for over a week now. I call that pure bad luck. So, I'm seated at the right end of the third row, far away from the fan (which is a nightmare in this heat) and with no one for company. I think I can finally understand why some people just hated school.

-.-

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Rain and Sunshine

Nadiah is in Gopeng, Perak now. She's going for matriculation. She really wants to try it out and I'm glad she went. Deep down, of course I don't want her to leave me to wrangle STPM without her but I'm not going to stop her from trying things. We're two completely different persons who want completely different things and have completely different dreams. So, we can't go everywhere together. I'll survive. I still have Raz & Kimi with me (Pare!).


Today, school was a little bit of rain, and a little bit of sunshine. "Rain" was, of course, the absence of Nadiah. Razmil and Kimi sat next to me today so I wouldn't feel too lonely. Raz on my right and Kimi on my left. Pn.NorBahya asked if there was anything going on between us (this is when I should tell you that 'gossip' is a major hobby in that school). Anyway, "rain" was also because I've decided to change to the accounting class. I won't be leaving Raz and Kimi too long because the class is right next door and I'll be in Sejarah whenever the accounts class is having Economics. That's exactly 8 periods in a week. They're my 'gang' in school and I need them to keep me sane.


Moving on, "sunshine" were the moments in school when teacher was too busy to teach. A bunch of us just talked the day away. We're all still quite new to each other so we spent those "teacher-less" times getting to know each other (quite loudly too :P). I had so much fun. We talked about ambitions , weight (how to gain and lose weight), drama queens, food (of course!) and relationships. That conversation would have turned out much differently if we were all in Form 2 or 3. However, since we're all 18 now, we've develop a slightly more mature thinking style. I'm not saying we're completely adults, but nor am I saying we're children. I realised that we are all more capable of understanding each other and accepting our differences politely as opposed to arguing and trying to pull everyone on your side. We 'know' and accept that everyone is entitled to their own opinions. I think we help each other grow up some how.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Subjects.. frm Hell!

School has been good so far. The subjects seem quite difficult but not impossible. General Knowledge is extremely boring, History is deadly soporific, Business Studies might be fun thanks to the teacher and MUET is really interesting. My favourite teacher so far is the Business Studies teacher. He's a joker with a straight face and he makes things interesting. For the first time since I can remember, the introduction of the subject didn't put me to sleep. I wish I could say the same for General Knowledge and History though. Those subjects act as tranquilizers for me. I was trying so hard to stay awake in class and make sure my eyelids didn't droop. MUET was fun for me because, even though I didn't like the teacher, I loved the subject and as people always say, 'Love conquers all'. English has always been the easiest subject for me and so the lessons bore me most times. However, this time, I wasn't even remotely bored because finally, I'm learning things I never knew. I'm definitely going to make sure that it's my best subject.

Fortunately for me, I'm not taking Economics, which leaves me with 3 free periods tomorrow. I'm first going to find out if I'm allowed to use the computer lab. If I am, then I'll spend my time there doing research on English Literature, which I'm taking in place of Economics for STPM. If not, I'll just read whatever novel I have in hand at that time. Pn.Janaky is helping me out with English Literature but so far, we've only got hold of the syllabus. I still need to find the text and read it. Once I'm done with all the text, I need to start intense exercises. I want to master that subject as best I can.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Explorace ala SMKAM..

***WARNING***
LONG POST AHEAD!!

Last day of orientation, a.k.a, boot camp.

We had an explorace and let me tell you, even though my team didn't get any prizes, we ruled the field! 10 Checkpoints. Here we go;

1. We had to score a minimum of 20 points by throwing basketballs into the basket. We had 5 shots and each shot was worth 10 points. Unfortunately, the Pare's don't have any ball-throwing skills at all. Our punishment, in order to pass through, was to let the seniors put make-up on us and then do a catwalk. Of course, the seniors did all they could to make us look like clowns and we rocked the runway.

2. Next, we had to crawl through the mud according to a path laid out for us. It's like one of those things you see in army shows with barbed wire tied to poles on either side of you and you have to crawl under it without touching the wires. For us, it was raffia string and each time we touched the string, we had to redo the course. All in all, I crawled the course 5 times. By the end of it, every one of us was covered in mud and we stunk. :P

3. We had to drink something. The checkpoint master blended some apples, onions, ginger, garlic and bananas for us to drink. There was a bit of drama here because one of my team members wasn't feeling too well so I asked her to sit this one out while we covered for her. All for one and one for all as we say in the Pare group. We would have made it through without a fuss if only the seniors had not said that everyone had to drink it. That one girl threw up and that was followed by a verbal argument between her and the seniors. All attempts to stop the fight was futile. Everyone was upset and in the end, we were shooed out of the checkpoint area. That cost us everything.

4. After the drama, Pare walked towards the next checkpoint together quietly and a little dispirited. Once we arrived at the next checkpoint, we did the task set out with a lot less energy than before. We made it through in record time though. The task was to find a marble in a bucket of mud and other junk with your toes while holding a live worm in your hands. Not very difficult unless you don't like creepy crawlies.

5. Just when I thought the worms were behind us, the next task was to scoop a worm onto a spoon and walk towards your partner who is 2-3 feet away while holding the spoon with your mouth. Sounds simple enough, until the worm starts crawling towards your mouth. I dropped the worm 3 times which earned me three brush strokes of flour mixed with water. Also, all of us had to be sprinkled with flour and then had water poured on us. By the end of it, we were ready to be baked in an oven, the only thing missing was some chocolate chips.

6. With flour and mud all over us, we made our way to the next checkpoint; the SpiderWeb. Predictably, we had to make our way through a web of raffia string without touching the strings. Each time we did, a point would be deducted and while we were making our way through the web, we were showered with flour. No need to say that we, Pare, aren't a very flexible bunch. We touched every string in sight but we made it through while laughing and on the bright side we got full marks on our very enthusiastic group cheer. Also, we were showered with eggs once we finished the Web.

7. Next, we had 10 minutes to fill up a water bottle with water. The catch was, one person had to be blindfolded and that person had to take two sponges and find the bottle that was to be filled. That person was guided by their team mates but at the same time, there were other people yelling contradicting instructions. Lucky for us, we had a good bond so we made it through quite well. After 10 minutes, we had about 100ml of water. It wasn't too good but we had fun. The next task at that same checkpoint was to blow a balloon till it exploded. The balloons were filled with sand beforehand. Everyone in my group did great, except me. I hate balloons that might burst. It's so scary. I had my eyes closed while I blew the balloon and the senior just popped it. I was close to tears but I didn't give in because I had my Pare with me. They kept me calm.

8. This checkpoint was the worst, in my opinion (excluding the 3rd, of course). Everyone except the team leader was blindfolded and their legs were tied together. I had to guide them through a figure-8 path. That was really hard since everyone was too scared to walk and all I could say was 'left' or 'right'. I hated this task. We only had 6 minutes to finish the path and needless to say, we failed. We were reprimanded, as was expected. We received a two minute penalty and we also had to eat wasabi. Even though that checkpoint was terrible, the senior in charge was great. He was so friendly and he made us all laugh. Two minutes felt like 30 seconds with him there. THANK YOU!

9. This was our best moment through out the whole race. There were 5 different plates on the table. In each plate was a different mixture.
  • Water, flour and chili powder.
  • Water, flour and pepper.
  • Flour.
  • Raw eggs.
  • Water, flour and salt.

In each plate, there were 2 mentos, 2 hack sweets and 2 tic tacs. The objective was to obtain those sweets using only your mouths in one go. The tic tacs were worth 15 points each and the others were 5 points each. We managed to get almost all the sweets out. Yean Meng single-handedly fished out all the sweets from the 5th mixture in one go. She earned us 55 points in less than 10 seconds.

10. The final checkpoint was the silliest but the most scientific at the same time (I wonder if that means 'science is silly'). We had to drink ginger water and then catch the guy holding the bananas we were supposed to eat. One we caught him and finished swallowing the bananas, we were supposed to whistle. Apparently, drinking ginger water and eating bananas will hinder you from whistling. I don't know if it'll work by just doing one or if it only works with both. Either way, I couldn't whistle at all but that isn't very surprising since I've never been able to whistle. Luckily for us, Yean Meng whistled us to safety. That was the fastest checkpoint. After that, we made the home run.

We arrived at the finish line as wet and stinky as the animals in the wild. Once everyone arrived, we were told to wash up and meet at the canteen. Nadiah, Banu and I went to the nearest tap and started scrubbing mud off our hands and hair. Once we were clean enough, we changed our T-shirts and made for the canteen. In our squeaky clean T-shirts and muddy pants, we arrived and the canteen for the closing ceremony. Prizes were given out to the best teams, leaders, group cheer and so on. As was expected, my group, Pare, didn't get anything at all. We were barred from receiving any kind of gift because of that one incident at the 3rd checkpoint. The seniors involved didn't even look at us. We were of course heartbroken but we still have each other. Pare through and through. We stick together, win or lose.

Whatever comes next, I'm confident that we'll still be Pare in the end. We've created a bond that I think will last through the whole of form 6. This was the whole point of the orientation. For us to get to know each other and make friends. Little do the teachers or seniors know, however, that they've created a tiny group of rebels who wont go down without a fight. We call ourselves Pare.

On a physical note, my whole body is aching right now. My hands are actually shaking while I type this. My stomach muscles are stiff too and they hurt when ever I cough or laugh which isn't good since I'm coughing alot at the moment. Also, that one day out in the sun has made my skin dark again or as Mesh would say, I look like a Blackened Chicken Alfredo.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Shameless..

I mingled with some of the seniors today. They're actually as childish as we are. The senior in charge of my group was proudly introducing me to her friends saying, 'this is my group leader'. Part of me was so shy but part of me was so proud of myself. Before working, I was always too shy for my own good. I wouldn't talk to anyone and I'd just stick to people I know. However, I've changed. I'm more outgoing than before and I make friends easier. I'm happy about the effect that working had on me. It's changed me in a good way. I know I'm not perfect and I still have lots of things to work on but I love my social skills. :P

Bro is finally home!! Alleluia :) He a little better but not completely healed yet. He's still on leave so he needs to stay home and get lots of rest. He'll be bored but he's got no choice. I hope he recovers completely. He really weak now so he needs lots of fluids to recharge his batteries. Problem is, he hates soups. I think at the most, he'll drink some chicken soup but other than that, we might have to force it down his throat.

Last but not least, I MISS FRIDAY'S!!! (even Syod, who irritates me all day)

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Butterflies....

I was so nervous yesterday. Starting something new, in this case Form 6, is really nerve-wrecking. It makes my stomach drop and my throat dry. But once I started, I can't remember what was so scary in the first place. My first day there was not too bad. The seniors are enjoying themselves bullying us. I'm not complaining though. They were probably bullied when they first started so their just releasing some of their inner hatred. I'll bear with it, mostly because it's not hard core bullying. It's simple stuff like "Choose a group name in 10 minutes or else...." and "You're late! Punishment; sing a song". Nothing I can't handle.

I met, or more accurately, saw, some of my primary school friends whom I haven't seen in years. It was kind of nice to see them all again, old friends and new. Some of them look the same as they did 5 years ago and some have really evolved. :P We were asked to form groups and fortunately for me, everyone in my group isn't overly shy. We call oursleves 'Pare' (meaning 'buddy'). So far, we've been quite a fun group.

The seniors are quite nice. They're having just as much fun as we are. The teachers are very fun too. I think I might just enjoy school. At the same time though, I'm missing work so much! It's only been 24 hours and already I wish I was there. My last day at work as a full-timer wasn't anything special at all. Almost all my favourites were off so I didn't have such a fun farewell. On the bright side, I'll get to see them all in 9 days! IMISSYOUALLSOMUCH!!

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Outta Control!

I feel panicky. I'm very nervous and I feel like I'm losing control. Things are happening in my life that I have very little control over and I don't like it. I'm a control freak (Yes, I admit it). I like to know that I have a plan that works and if it doesn't I have back ups. The problem is, I can't plan out my path for now. It's got to be a 'one step at a time' thing which I hate! I don't like having no control.

Form six is starting and there are so many things I'm worried about most important of which is the subjects I'm taking for STPM. I want to take English Lit and probably Economics, Business, or BM. I just don't know if the school will let me take these subjects. They have packages and streams which they expect their students to follow. I'm quite sure there is no stream that will allow me to take the subject combination that I want and that's stressing me out.


Also, eventhough I'm still going to work part time, I'm going to miss everyone so much! And I'm worried about the decision I have to make if work gets in the way of school. I'll hate to leave them.

I feel like I'm standing in the middle of nowhere watching everything around me being whipped upside down by dozens of tornados while I'm safe and there's nothing I can do about it. It's maddening not to have control! ARGH!!!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Oh No!.. and Oh No!!

Here it goes;

*The first 'oh no!' is for the fact that my violin bow is unfixable. It's not worth repairing so I have to get a new one. I love that old bow of mine but I have no choice. For now, I'm using a carbon fibre bow as a replacement (which I don't like at all) till I find another wooden bow. I'm going to the shop this Saturday before work to test some bows out. Hopefully I can find one I like as much as the old bow.

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*The second 'oh no!' is for the fact that Form 6 starts in four days. I'm excited about it but I'm going to miss my job so much! I'm going to miss all my friends too. I'm planning to continue working there as a part-timer but only if it doesn't get in the way of school. I hope it doesn't because I really don't want to leave. I have lots to do before and after starting Form 6. The most important agenda before Form 6 is cleaning my room to make way for the incoming textbooks and stuff. After registering though, I need to figure out how to make sure I study the subjects I want to instead of the subject everyone else wants me too.

*phew!~*

Monday, May 3, 2010

IMY!

It's May?? That was fast. Almost half the year has passed by and I didn't feel a thing.

Anyway, these past few days have been average and sometimes rocky. Adrain transferred to Curve and we all miss him so much! He's been a great General Manager and he's taught us all a lot. I'll miss his style and laugh. I'll miss his jokes too. The Curve isn't too far away so maybe I'll go visit him someday.

Our new GM isn't too bad. So far, so good. He's a nice man and it's a relief that he's the kind of person we can joke with. It'll be hard for him to fill Adrian's shoe but he may just be able to. Good Luck!

I became a food runner these past two days. It was fun being a food runner. Tiring, definitely, but fun. It kept my adrenaline pumping. It also made my fingers hurt but lets focus on the good part okay. I enjoyed running the food to tables and organising the expo area when no one else is around. I also covered for the runners when they were busy. I wiped cutleries and refilled the mini desserts. I don't mind doing that again. Although, I need to gain some more strength because after 2 straight days of running food, I have not much energy left. Therefore, I was an SPG again today. I like being an SPG too but sometimes it can be really boring. Today, for instance, was extremely soporific. I circled the whole store about a hundred times in just two hours! (I think I'm exaggerating that but I'm not so sure). I have to find some sort of entertainment for when I'm facing long hours of boredom. Something conspicuous that I can enjoy at the SPG stand.

Moving on, Daniel's back! So now that my brother's bestie is back, he'll be even more cuckoo than usual. But still, WB DJP!..