Christmassy

Hello!

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :)

I hope y'all had a good Christmas day. I know I had a good time. Presents this year were great. I have a new phone which is awesome! It's really cool and I love it! It actually matched my Christmas dress:) Anyways, now it needs a name. I can't think of any yet but I'm sure it'll come to me.

Also, mum got my brother a remote control helicopter (that big baby) and he loves it so yay! :)

Little brother got a bunch of stuff again this year. I swear, we're spoiling him. But hey, he's 3 and completely adorable so it's all good. We got them matching superman t-shirts:)

Anyways, we went to Melaka. The entire family, extended and dysfunctional. We stayed at one of the villas in Kota A Famosa. It was huge and it has a pool! We had lots of fun.

On the first day, we went to the safari and later at night, we went to 'Cowboy Town'. The safari was not too bad. The truck ride was very bumpy and the trucks were spewing pollution all over the place, those poor animals. But other wise, it was ok. the Wild West Show was not family friendly and not something I enjoyed but oh well.

Cowboy Town, on the other hand, was much better. We had dinner at a Chinese restaurant (in Cowboy Town, how weird is that) and then played a bunch of fun fair games. We won a medium sized prize worth 1500 points!

The next day, we went to the water park. Dillon had fun in the wave pool while we, (bro, Krissie and I) enjoyed the slides. We managed to convince Dillon to come with us on the Family Raft slide with aunty and he did but he was really scared (he's scared of everything, even flies!). He cried a bit after the slide but he then enjoyed watching other people slide down.

Once we got back to the villa, Krissie and I played pool tennis for a couple more hours. We both ended up sun burnt, Krissie got it worse than me. Black licorice and red licorice, brother calls us :)

At night, we went for dinner at a fancy Thai restaurant. The food was delicious and it was reasonably priced too. And mama wore her new dress!!

So, that's about it for Melaka. I'm still really tired. I think I need a holiday to recover from this holiday. Grr.

:)

The Human Aspect (2nd post of the day)

NOW, something else.

All this while, I've never really considered the human aspects of migrant workers. I mean, they've always been there. I think of the as workers. They works for money and on their off days they relax. Just like any other worker. What I failed to really see is that they're more than just workers. They're human.

They have families too, and their own lives back home. They have husbands or wives, children, mothers and fathers, brothers and sisters that they leave behind so they can earn a better future for themselves and their families.

I met this guys at work. He's been in Malaysia for 2 years now. When he left Myanmar, his wife was 3 months pregnant. Which means, He's never even seen his baby! That is so hard to imagine, but it's happening. To not have held your child, your first born, when he was just a baby. To not be by your wife's side when she was in the delivery room. Those are what I call terrible moments.

He told me that he calls them once in a while and he speaks to his son. The son calls him papa over the phone even though they've never actually met. And I could see the immense love he has for his child. I can see in his eyes just how much he misses his wife and son, 24-7.

He said, 'When I talk to him on the phone, he just listens to me. He calls me papa. I love him so much! I miss him.'

That broke my heart. Every time this man talks about his family, he comes close to tears.He taught me this: Migrant workers have it a lot harder than anyone else. They leave their family behind (they'd rather not) to find a job that pays good so they can support their family. They don't go home for months, mostly years. I know another guy who hasn't been back in 5 years!

My heart goes out to them all. This man, he's going back to Myanmar for a month in April. That's all he can think about and I don't blame him. I don't know how he's going to find the will power to come back. I mean, he's going to see his son for the first time. I doubt he'll want to leave again.

Anyway, this is what I learnt. I learnt to see the human aspect in migrant workers. Something I'm ashamed to say, I failed to see before.

Melting Pot!

These past few days, I've taken to scribbling down my thoughts (and sometimes even using the notepad on the Kindle). I want to put it all up here but there are quite a few different topics and separating them in different posts would mean a lot of loading and reloading of the website which will take forever on this computer. So, I have opted to type it all out here, in one post. :) Hope you (though I think no one reads this other than my mother) enjoy this melting pot of thoughts!

Criminal Justice System:
I read in the newspaper the other day that a man was sentenced to death for trafficking drugs (430 grams of it). Just below that was another article but this one was of a man who was sentenced to 16 years in jail for raping 2 girls. I am thoroughly appalled!

Is this really how the law works? Trafficking drugs can get you executed but raping 2 people can get you a measly 16 years in jail? I fail to see the logic in that. Drug trafficking is categorised as a more dangerous and therefore more heavily punishable crime than rape? Really?

Is this the message we are sending to the world? You can sell drugs, we'll just kill you. End of story. You can rape 2 people, we'll just put you in jail for 16 years. You can then get out, sometimes earlier if you're on good behaviour, and you can start raping again.

This is justice?
Oh vomit!

Society:
Sometimes I see people around me who seem to lack the simplest, most basic values like manners and gratitude. What really got me thinking about this was my teacher saying to the class, "you studied Pendidikan Moral (Moral Studies) for 5 years and yet, you still act like a bunch of monkeys, breaking as many school rules as you can."

In school, we had Pendidikan Moral. We had to learn all the values by heart as well as their corresponding definitions. If you got even one word out of line, you would be destined for failure (which is a big no-no!). We heard words like kerajinan (diligence), baik hati (good hearted), and tanggungjawab (responsibility). But that's all they were, merely words.

We were not taught the real way of behaving and treating others. We had example like "you have to give the elderly your seat on the bus" but that was just so we could answer the questions. The morality we learnt was merely conceptual and there was a heavy leaning towards making sure we memorised all the values and getting A's in our exams rather than actually understanding or applying any of it.

It's no wonder the current majority is made up of rude, unsympathetic, in-compassionate beings (but they just don't realise it). We do the best with what we were taught and trust me when I say, the best we can get from "You must score all A's" is not nearly as great as "this is how a decent person acts and we should all strive to be decent". Not nearly as great.


My Current State of Mind: 
(not very interesting but hey, it's my blog after all)

Feel... What do I feel? Hmm... I'm not entirely sure. It's in my head somewhere. Let me take a crack at it.

It's kind of an out of body experience, only, not really. I know I'm here - I feel present and aware of what's going on around me - but my brains and thoughts and some emotions are kind of separated. I'm not completely here. It's like I'm seeing myself through a glass wall. I see everything and I hear everything but I don't quite feel everything the same way. Not sensations like hot and cold or other nerve-receptor related feelings but real feelings like emotions in my heart and my brain. They're there, just not as strong. I feel somehow disconnected.

I think it's because I know (somehow) that my life is on course. I don't know exactly where I'm headed but I do know that I'm heading the right way and I just can't wait to get school over with so I can take the next step. It's like I'm suspended, waiting for my turn to walk out the door.

I'm coming... or going, depending on which way you choose to look at it.

Loss:
So young. He was too young. I can't imagine how his family is going to handle the loss. His mother, his sister. How can they go on?

I don't know what I'd do if I lost my brother like that. So young, so sudden. I'd probably breakdown. Be unable to function for the better part of my self prescribe and very long mourning period. Never able to be the me I used to be when he was alive.

I wouldn't want to see anyone or talk to anyone. I'd just want to spend the last few hours I had with my brother before we bury his lifeless body in the earth forever. I would probably start yelling at people after a while. They'll be trying to console me but I won't want to hear any of it. Words wouldn't bring him back. He would have gone somewhere I won't be able to follow. I would prefer if they just left me alone to mourn.

I hope they can go on with life.

Finally,
STPM:
Haha:)
In 17 days, I will face the beginning of the end of my school days. I'm pretty stoked about it. I'm finally getting in the right frame of mind for some studying and I feel like I can definitely do this.

Right now, my countdown will not be till the start of the exams. Instead, I'll be counting down the days till the 15th. At 5pm on that day, I will be free! No more white and blue uniforms. No more waking up at 5.30am. I can even paint my school shoes! :)

I cannot wait!

I Am Sam

I am Sam is a movie about a developmentally challenged father raising his 7 year old daughter. Sam Dawson (Sean Penn) had the mental capacity of a 7 year old and he has been raising his daughter, Lucy (Dakota Fanning) all on his own. Sam is a nice guy who tries very hard and learns. He has a huge capacity for love. You cry, he hugs you. Lucy is small and bright and full of love. No matter how terrible it seemed, she always loves her father and she didn’t want anyone else.

One day, Sam was approached by a prostitute and because he didn’t know better, Sam almost went with her. A policeman saw them and took Sam to the police station. They knew it wasn’t his fault, so they let him go. However, there was a Social Services officer at the station. After seeing Sam, she thought something should be done because he seemed incapable of raising a child.

On the day of Lucy’s 7^th birthday, Sam decided to throw a surprise party for her. Sadly, the officer came to took her away. There was some drama. The judge then ruled that Sam gets visiting rights, twice a week.

Sam, then, found himself a lawyer who drove herself into a corner and had no choice but to work for him pro bono. They try to come up with a witness list that can help Sam out. These witnesses included Sam’s best friends who are similarly challenged and some other people that can help.

All the while, Lucy was placed under foster care. She didn’t like it at all, obviously. Sam and his lawyer, they tried so hard. All he wanted was to give her love. He just wanted his child and she wanted her father. This whole movie is very raw and basic. It’s about love and friendship. That’s it, nothing else. It’s not clouded with anything else.

There is one part when the opposition attorney, Mr. Turner (Richard Schiff who played Toby in The West Wing [mama will appreciate that]) asked Sam if he thinks he can raise Lucy. Sam quoted a Beatles song; Paul McCartney wrote the first verse and handed it over to John Lennon to write the rest. Lennon wrote, “I love you, I love you, I love you.” That’s what you need, Sam said. That’s what you need.

Also, Mr. Turner asked Sam if he could provide Lucy with everything she needs as she grows up. Sam said no, he couldn’t give Lucy everything. He wants to but can’t. It’s important that I mention now just how stressed Sam was feeling by this time. He was being bombarded with questions from this almost hostile lawyer and Sam felt overwhelmed. He was afraid and overwhelmed.

I think Mr. Turner was trying to prove that Sam, who had the capacity of a 7 year old, was incapable of raising a child. He was trying to prove that she could get everything she needed, somewhere else.

Here’s what I think: Sam was right. He cannot give Lucy everything she needs. But then again, no one can. No one can give their child the best school, the best toys, the best food the best care and the best everything else, all at the same time. It’s impossible. Every parent wants that for their child but they just can’t do it. They can try but it’s unlikely that they can give everything. And Sam is just like every other parent, in that aspect. Are you telling me you’re going to drag all the other families to court too on these ground?

Anyway, Sam reached a point where he almost gave up. Lucy seemed ok with her foster family and he felt hopeless. But his lawyer, Rita Williams (Michele Pfieffer) got his hopes up. She helped him get a job he can enjoy (dog walker). Things started to look fine, until the foster family decided to try and adopt Lucy.

Sam decided to move closer to Lucy because he missed her and also taking the bus really wasted a lot of time. So, he bought an apartment nearby. Lucy found out about this while selling Girl Scout Cookies in the neighbourhood and started sneaking out of her room. She would walk to her father’s apartment. Sam, surprised as he was, didn’t keep her. He didn’t let her stay there nor did he take her away some place far. Instead, he took her back to her foster family. This became some sort of a routine until the family decided to fix bars on Lucy’s windows (nice ones).

Her foster mother told her that she only had to ask if she wanted to see her father. Any time, any day, she could see her father. They would take her.

The foster family wanted to prove to the court that they could provide her with the kind of love that she has never had before. They change their minds, however, when they see just how much Lucy and Sam love each other. They see just how much they need each other to survive. Lucy already has that kind of love and nothing can replace it.

This movie didn’t exactly get very great reviews but I think it’s a great movie. Yes, it’s kind of sappy and predictable but it’s a happy ending that we all want to see. Also, some people say this movie is  "Undone by its best intentions, I Am Sam is an especially insipid example of the Hollywood message movie.” I think it is, but I also think that there’s nothing wrong with that. I love message movies. They’re great.

I cried so much during this movie. Tears rolled down my cheeks when I watched ‘I’m Not Stupid 2’ and ‘Pay It Forward’. But this time, this time I actually cried. By cried, I mean sobs: real sobs and tears and heaving of breath. I was a mess!

This movie, the actors and the ‘predictable’ storyline was all well choreographed. I loved it. I cried throughout almost the entire movie. The entire movie!

Scenes I cried at the most:

• Sam was reading a book to Lucy, something her teacher gave her. He was having difficulty with some words. Lucy ended up saying she didn’t want to listen to that story and asked Sam to read his favourite book instead, Green Eggs and Ham by Dr. Seuss

• Sam learns that Lucy is holding herself back in school because she doesn’t want to be intellectually superior to her father. He gets her to read that hard book. She stops at the word ‘difficult’ (the same word he has trouble with) and pretended not to know it. He then said to her, “I’m your father and I'm telling you to read the word.” He knew he had to push her and eventually, she read it to him. “I like to hear you read. It's makes me happy to hear you read.”

• In the cafeteria, Sam wanted to pay for lunch. His lawyer tried to say no. She said he didn’t have to. She said he didn’t have to pay for lunch just to seem more grown up. He became understandably upset. He told her that she thought they thought (they being the Child and Family Services). She tried to say that what she thought didn’t matter in court but Sam said it mattered to him

• Sam and Lucy in the bus. Lucy conned the social service officer and her father too. She took him on a bus ride and they stayed on the bus and then got down at a park far away. Just the two of them.

• When Sam took the stand.

• When Sam had given up. He stayed in his old apartment, making origami. Rita shows up and tires to talk to him. Sam says that she doesn’t know what it’s like to keep trying and trying and trying and never get there. She was born perfect but he was born like that. People like her didn’t know what it’s like to be hurt. Boy, did she give him a wake up call. She said he wasn’t the only one. People like her feel lost and small and ugly and dispensable. People like her have a son who hates her (not really la, just not a good relationship). She cried and he hugged her.

• When Sam and Lucy were hugging and the officers had to pull them apart.

Sean Penn played his part very well and so did the young Dakota Fanning. She received many awards for her role in this movie. This movie was great. I would watch it again and again.

p.s: I actually wrote this out on Microsoft Word. A whole different thing. But my computer decided to restart itself without my permission just before I clicked the save button. Also, the Autorecovery thing doesn't seem to be working. So, I had to rewrite this from scratch. I don't like this version as much as I liked the first. Sadly, I can't get it back. This will have to do. It was hard to rewrite this, especially when my head was throbbing with anger. Seriously, I just want to stab this PC. I'm trying to concentrate here, HELLO!

:)

Wolves, Princesses and cute Boys!

Sunday:

So, I've obviously been AWOL these past few days. I've actually just been very lazy. I log in to Blogger and end up logging out again because the thought of typing out the words in my head seemed pretty dull work at the time. It still kind of is - mainly because I don't really have anything to rant about. Or, I do, but it's all little stuff that's scrunched up together which requires a certain amount of energy to untangle. 

And yet, here I am, typing. I do this, oddly enough, not when I'm physically fit but when my left arm is screaming out for repose.

Ok. Change of plans. I have to sleep now, so my brother keeps telling me. Continued later.

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Tuesday:

Hello. I must be some weirdo. I'm supposed to be working, and I thought that since the WIFI connection is down, I might actually move a little faster. Boy, could I be any more wrong. I got the broadband out. :)

Ok, so here's the scoop. My left arm was protesting on Sunday because on Saturday, I carried Dillon around a lot. He's 2 and he's a lot smaller than me but man is he heavy! Or maybe I'm just not fit? A little of both I think.

On Saturday, we were all supposed to go to Port Klang to see the Lugos ship. The Dulos' sister or something. But, big brother had a futsal tournament and we ended up going for that instead. Dillon was so excited. I can see the resemblance between my two brothers very clearly now. If I let Dillon down, he'd run right into the court! He wanted to join then but they're big buffaloes playing a friendly match. They take their futsal very seriously.

So, I had to hold on to Dillon the entire time. And every few seconds, he'd go, "Where's kohkoh?" (which means brother in Chinese, although the spelling might be wrong.) Once, big brother got out of the game because he was really tired, and he couldn't breathe properly. Dillon's attention was totally off the game. He only had eyes for his brother who he knew wasn't ok. So then, I had to carry Dillon to our brother.

So, so cute!

We ended up not going to the ship because by the time the match was over, Dillon was beat. So, they headed back and we did too.

Which then takes me backwards to Thursday. THE BIG BAD WOLF BOOK SALE!

The best book sale ever! Since I won the preview pass (picture above), mum and I got to go a day earlier. Us and another few hundred or so people. But that didn't matter at all because the hall was ENORMOUS and it felt like no one was there.

Anyway, mum and I bought many a book. I completed my Princess Diaries set, found Artemis Fowl: The Atlantic Complex and a few other good looking books. Mama bought quite a few romance novels and we we grabbed tons of recipe books! We even bought a Jamie Oliver Christmas Special Food Magazine. Sweet:)

We spent almost 2 hours in there and we could have spent more time but we didn't want to hurt out wallets too much. So, hard as it was, we dragged ourselves to the cashier and paid for our loot. Only RM200+ for about 30 books. Magical! We kinda took the extremely long way home but it was worth it.

I went to the sale again yesterday! This time, I took Nadiah, Claudine and Maria with me. We went in the evening so there wasn't much of a crowd. We didn't even have to line up to go in. We did get lost on the way though. I took the wrong turning so we ended up on the wrong side of the road from the MARDI entrance. I took one big round and started again. We made it there after 2 hours. *Phew*

The sale was still worth it though. They added more books. I was looking for the fourth Princess Diaries book (apparently I missed that ): ) But I couldn't find it. Nor did I find the Ultimate Cake book mama wanted or her novel. I did find some awesome Princess Diaries extras though. The are 10 books in the series and a few smaller books in between. Found two so far, and I'm going to start looking for the rest! Also, I found a great present for MeshPot:)

Oh, another big news, KINDLE has ARRIVED! I have my own Kindle now! IT'S ALL MINE! muahahahaha! :)

Can't wait to get started! All these books to read, and only 2 months till the end of my school life, it's stoked! :)

Okok, I have to get back to work now. Earn me some $$ :)

Day Out With Baby Dillon

First up was the photo studio (meaning the Kodak Store!). The birthday boy was crying a lot but mostly because of the lights (partly because He 'doesn't know me'). We tried so many things to get him to smile, rattles, a fan, his hat. He was supposed to get a solo shot but refused to be alone so we ended up with a family photo and a photo of him with one parent at a time. He's absolutely adorable but a little 'spoiled'. He's a mama's boy, always gets his way. We won't the photos today itself so they'll email it to me when it's ready.

After Kodak, we headed home so Dillon could take his nap.When he woke up, we took some pictures with the cake and Dillon's birthday present (a remote control car).

Behold my cuteness!

  

:)



Happy Birthday to me!

After that, we headed to Tony Roma's for lunch. I couldn't help but compare the food to that of Friday's. Lets start of with the appetizer; Spanish Onion which is kind of like onion rings (I'd have preferred the Frizzled Onions from Friday's), buffalo wings and potato skins. The onion was good but too oily in my opinion, buffalo wings were great and the potato skins were alright. For the main course, we had barbecued ribs. The one in Friday's is much more tender but the sauce here is better. Also, I have to admit, their mash potato was awesome (compared to Friday's). I feel kind of guilty about the food there being better but if I compare the service, Friday's beat them flat. In conclusion, I'm sticking to Friday's! Anyway, we played with some soap bubble in Tony Roma's (something we should have done for the photo shoot).

 Well, I had alot of fun. At first, he was a little scared by me because he hadn't seen me in a while but once he got used to me it was all OK. I had a great day with you, Dillon Li! (Yeah, yeah.. I know you can't read)

FunDay, FoodDay, FinalDay(of the week)!

Finally Friday! This week has been keeping me busy. I'm a little behind on homework but hopefully I'll be able to catch up during the weekend. Now that I think about it, I actually have a lot going on, in school, church, BEC, and my personal schedule. I have to make sure I avoid biting off more than I can chew. I'm still sane, thankfully, and I'm actually handling things quite well. Better than I would have a few years ago, anyway.

We had a little origami class in school today. We made birds, hearts and little 'sampan's. Dinesh named his boat 'Ath'ena' (Apparently it's the ship that got wrecked in the beginning of twelfth night) and I named mine 'Petite' (as in, the opposite of Titanic. Also, that's what Visha called me:)). Witty, no? Romina and Visha got a heart each and little birds that actually didn't come out good. Which reminds me, I have some PA homework to finish.

Anyway, moving on to food! Today, ma and I actually cooked a proper meal for ourselves. Ma made fried rice (delicious!) and I made spring rolls. My first time, but it tasted quite good.



Ingredients for the filling: Spring Onions, Carrots, Light Green Chili



Filling the spring (before it becomes a roll:)

 

Rolled and ready to fry

Viola! The end-product.

 Tasty :)
Awesome dinner today.

Anyway, tomorrow, I'm heading off to go see Dillon! His parents want to take him to a photo studio for a photo shoot. I've never done anything like that so I'm quite excited. Most babies cry a lot during photo shoots but Dillon is really easy going (unlike his dad :P), so I think he'll be fine. I am, however, kind of worried that he's forgotten me (which is very possible since I haven't seen him in quite a while). I'm hoping he has a great memory (to remember his long lost sister) or at least a good judge of character (knowing that I love him and just want to spoil him all I can!). I'm so excited to the point where I've already picked out my outfit for tomorrow. Something sweet, comfortable and baby friendly.

I was thinking about getting him a present for his birthday but it seems the cons outweigh the pros. He's growing fast so it'll be a 'No' for clothes. I don't think he can fully enjoy a proper toy, and a card is just tacky (even if he could read). I'll hold off the material spoiling till he's old enough to remember:)

My lids are getting heavier by the minute so see y'all around!

SLOW DAY!

Work was slow today. To be honest it was kind of boring at times. Walking into work, I saw the first new trainee. His name is Teethan. He's my age but he didn't sit for SPM because he did O Levels in Australia (talk about an interesting life story!). It turns out that he know the new converse guy. So now it's like we have a connection with them (apart from Cassy). Teethan is kind of shy but we're warming up. Of course things got better when June came into work because she's such a friendly person. There are a few more trainees coming in this week. They're all going to be here for 3 months so it's a month as SPG, a month as Dub and a month in the kitchen. They're not as shameless as the bacth before (no offence to ManMan, WangWang, JingJing, DoEunJi and KentSan) but they sure are friendly. I think we'll all get along just fine. :)

Like I said before, work was really slow today. It was so slow to the point that Sanjiv, June and I were playing bingo, tic-tac-toe and 'chi-ku-pang' (don't know if I spelt it right) at the SPG stand. That part of work was fun. Break time was fun too because June, Mesh, Sanjiv and I went to the arcade. We played one round of the racing game. As usual, Sanjiv managed to get 1st place and I was second. June was third and Mesh was at the tail end again. I enjoyed myself. mostly because we only went to arcade about 30 minutes before June and I were scheduled to sign in. It was the adrenaline rush more than anything that was keeping me awake.

Tomorrow I'm going to visit Dillon Li again! I can't wait. I really miss him. I hope he remembers me this time. Either way, I'll make sure I take it slow. I don't want to make him cry. Anyway, there's going to be lots more pictures!

Dillon Li

I visited Dillon Li today! He's adorable. He can sit up now and he teething so he'll chew anything in sight.

I'm cute and I know it!

:)

hi!

Season Of Change

I'm FINALLY off! After 11 days of working without an off, it's good to just sit at home and do nothing. I'm kind of burnt out with working. Now I know why people don't work everyday. It's very tiring to see the same place and do the same thing over and over again for 11 days straight. The day off, a full 24 hours away from work, is just the thing I need to get rejuvenated.

I feel much better about getting back to work tomorrow. It's going to be a challenge with all the new faces. At the same time it'll be fun because even though I've only been working for a month and a half, I have seniority. June and I will have a ball training them. June is a little worried though because she says that she herself isn't very familiar with taking orders. I think she'll be awesome though.

Speaking of new faces, I'm really going to miss alot of the old faces there. Alot of them were nice to me and most of them taught me everything I now about Friday's. I'm going to miss talking to them and joking around. I'm a little attached to all of them in a way. I sincerely hope that they come and visit often. I'd like to see them again some time. Going back to work knowing that they'll be gone is a little upsetting. I do hope the best for them anyway. I'LL MISS YOU ALL!!

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I've realised that alot of things are happening this time around. It's the season of change. A new batch of staff is coming to Friday's. I'm 18 now and I feel like I have to be more mature, to live up to my age. Also, things at home are changing. As for now, I can't be sure if it's for the better or worse. Everything is a little rocky now. Sometimes I just wish I could tell someone everything that's on my mind without them telling me what's on theirs. I know it sounds selfish but I just want some one to listen to me, to nod once in a while as I'm rambling. Once I'm done, then you can start. Once I get that of my chest then I don't mind being your sounding board. I just need a sounding borad of my own first.

Anyway, I'm in the mood for cooking. I'll make some cupcakes, and then dinner. GOTTA GO!!

Delayed Posts..

I planned to update my blog on the night of my birthday but I was working the closing shift. So then I postponed till the next day. Unfortunately, the internet was giving some problems. Therefore, I'm going to update the happenenings of the past few days here and now :)

14 February 2010:
That was an awesome day. Church was fun because I was wishing everyone Happy New Year and Happy Valentine's while they we all wishing me Happy Birthday. Mass was quite calming for me as well. Then we went for lunch. The family was complete though kind of complicated. My mother, brother, father, step-mother, and half-brother were all there. Also, Cassy (brother's girl) was there too. We had lunch at a restaurant called Sure Pizza. The food was great! I had a great time. However, my father and brother (who are so alike but they don't know it) complained about anything and everything they could. The food wasn't great, the prices were off and blah blah blah. I was a little mad. I wanted a nice lunch with my family but they have to damper it with their constant whining. All this was because they have huge egos and they think that their cooking is the best even though it actually isn't. Anyway, I told them off and they kept quiet. They even complimented a thing or two. The presents were awesome too. I got a jacket and make up set from my dear brother and his girl. Mom made me an awesome powerpoint presentation. Dad gave some money and a cake. All in all, lunch was enjoyable.

Then I went to work. as soon as I entered, June gave me a huge hug. The Anba wished me Happy Valentine's (he forgot my birthday). My heart was breaking. But then he came to me and apologised for forgetting. He hugged me and wished me too. Then Dante gave me a present even though he only found out about my birthday on that day itself. I had fun. After I was done with my closing duties, Nadiah gave me a charm for my bracelet and a cute letter. I can definitely say that turning 18 was great!

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Skipping ahead till today:
Nadiah started as a dub at Friday's today. She looked like she was enjoying it. I love having her around too. Everyone seems to like her as well. Some people think she's kind of shy but that's just because it's her first day. I was shy too on my first day. Now look at me. I'm loud and laughing all day with the dubs. She'll be ok, I'm sure of it.

Anyway, June and I had a language class from the Philipinos at Friday's. Matabak (chubby) is what I call Barney(Firdaus) and Dante. Payat(slim) is Anba. Guapo(handsome) is Dominic and Adrian Boss. Tito(uncle) is Bernard @ Bernie. Aso(dog) is anyone who gets on our nerve. We'll continue the lesson tomorrow!

On another note (which is still related to Friday's), I got my salary yesterday. But since it's the weekend, it'll only clear on Tuesday. I can't wait to pay my own phone bill and electricity bill. I also want to go shopping. I want to get a nice blouse or maybe I wont get anything. I just want to see the figures on the ATM machine screen. :)

That's all for now!

Unsettled

My mood for the day has fluctuated a lot. I woke up in a good mood but somehow it turned sour within the hour. After that, when boss, a.k.a Raja, came, I was a little better. He kept making me laugh. We we're talking about the "difficulties he faced as the boss in Friday's". Yeah right! His faked accent was hilarious. Anytime I didn't feel like smiling, all I have to do is look at him and I instantly crack up. Honestly, he's one of the staff there that I just can't wait to see when I go to work. He makes my day just that much better.

After that, I went for my break. I spent an hour alone with my thoughts (like I don't already spend enough time inside my own head!). Anyway, I was thinking about a lot of things. I think it was my once in a while 'who-am-I?' moment. I was thinking about what subject I should study? What career I should aim for? And of course who am I, really? Then there were questions like who are my friends? and who are my 'friends'? Who will I miss the most from Friday's when I leave? And the age-old WHAT'S UP WITH MY MOOD??!!

Of course, I didn't get exact answers to those questions (I never really expect too, but somehow I'm get very upset when I don't have answers). It was all more of a jumbled mess of thoughts. One thought leading to another, then to another and ending up on a completely unrelated topic. Overall, my head was very messed up today.

Now, my mood is down again. All I wanted was to spend some time talking to my mother and brother. Unfortunately, they're both working tomorrow and it's getting late. They need to sleep. I'm just a little sad. I like talking to them, mumbling and rambling nonsense. They listen to me and I can tell them anything. However, they're tired. So I don't get to spend that time with them. I am disappointed. I'm getting a little nostalgic now because I just remembered those times we used to sing "The Three Of Us" before going to sleep every night. It felt good. I felt safe and happy. I still feel safe now, just not so happy. Life has been great, but some aspects have me a little down.

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That was me letting out my frustrations on my keyboard. I would have continued except for the fact that I keep pressing the F5 button which asks me if I want to "navigate away from this page" and I have to keep clicking 'NO'. That was a little more frustrating. I'm now in a bitter mood. I just feel like screaming out my frustrations. AAARRRGGHHHH!!

Nope, still not better. Hopefully tomorrow's day out will do me some good. I hope it doesn't feel awkward when we go out. I'm used to chatting with Leon on Facebook but not so in real life. We'll see how it goes. Prognosis looks good though.

Oh well, my eyes are getting heavy. I'll be back here soon! Have a great day!